BABY C

I figured it's time for a little update/follow up of Baby C. I am in the process and will get it done of getting the twins birthday blog up (that one requires a lot more time, thoughts, and emotions.)

All is well with little Baby C.  I continue to feel great overall. Maybe slightly tired (haha) but I am not even sure I can blame it on the pregnancy. Chasing two 13 month olds around is challenging. I love that I am able to go for walks, get outside (although that has been limited due to smoke), or just get out of the house for a bit (those outings are few and far between also) either way I am thankful to not be laying in bed. 

I really do feel great. I have had wicked bad tailbone pain that I have toughed out since about 8-10 weeks. I am hoping after delivery it magically disappears. Other than that I am doing well. I actually am one of the weird ones that love being pregnant. It truly is amazing. 

I say all is well with "little" Baby C. Key word is little. Apparently this baby is measuring small. I really have no concerns or worries of this. It's not 4# or 4# 6oz. small. I have had several U/S. My last one was last week and the baby came in at the 7%. They do not like to see them below the 10% mark. So today I had a follow up with my Doctor. We did another U/S and a biophysical profile, which looked wonderful. Afterwards my Doctor and I chatted. We do have the option to move the date of delivery if we would want to. But, She feels confident that we can make the scheduled date of the 14th. We will repeat the same test we did today in a week. For now Andy and I are sticking with the 14th. I am not a fan of early deliveries so getting to the 39 mark is important to me and what I feel is best. 

I told my Doctor that I am not too worried about the growth, unless it were to stop. The growth interval wasn't spectacular, but it wasn't awful either. With the twins I was so sick, by the time I got to SLC at 23.4 weeks, I had lost around 15-17 pounds. I never really gained this back afterwards or before I got pregnant 4.5 months later :/ I told my Doctor that I feel my body has given all that it can give. It's doing it's best to keep up. I used to joke that the twins sucked the life out of me during the pregnancy... They left nothing for this little one. She two agrees. She said that I have great insight. But also this is a risk factor of back of back pregnancy. Who knows maybe it will come out a Monster like me weighing in at 8# 10oz. 

Baby C at 36.5 Weeks. Feeling great!

I am getting slightly more excited as the date approaches. Honestly though, it doesn't even seem real to me or possible :( I am still adjusting to the twins and they are so busy. They are on the go daily, I feel I am constantly running a marathon. I think or I am hoping that once the baby is here and I hold him/her in my arms that it will be pure happiness and bliss, and if I cry and have a breakdown for the 3-4 days that I am in the hospital, well that is needed also and will be good for me. 

I have done my best to enjoy this last month of pregnancy. Like I said I really do like being pregnant. It is truly magical (I know, I am probably one of those annoying Mom's) But, I am so blessed to be able to home three little ones. I am actually kind of sad and mourning that this is almost over... I won't get another chance to have a little one grow inside, to feel the little kicks, to see and hear the heartbeat for the first  time, and see the little face for the first time via U/S. To anticipate the gender, discuss names, and wonder who he/she will look like. So, there is some sadness there. It is weird how these thoughts come to surface. Who knew this is how I would feel. 

When I brought Zoe home at a month of age I had feelings (and I felt awful about them) of how it would of been nice to have just one. I still look at Mom's with just one and have a bit of envy for them that they get to enjoy all the moments with one and not have to share. I have this same feeling again. It brings tears to my eyes. I feel I am still getting a routine with the twins, we are doing so much, they are developing their little personalities, everyday they change, and now there is a part of me that wishes I had more time with just the twins. I explained this to my Dr. the other day with tears in my eyes. She explained these feelings are completely normal and that I will feel so blessed and be so loved with these 3 little ones. I know I will/we will. We will feel blessed, and I do feel honored that I have been given the chance to be their Mommy and that they chose us as parents. 

Pink or Blue? 10 days!

"As much as you want to plan this life, it has a way of surprising you with unexpected things that will make you happier than you originally planned. That what you call God's will."