Wife and A Life at 30 (+)!: Dos Months!

Love her.

2 Months! Ziah is 2 Months old now. She is starting to show her personality, and giving us lots of smiles. She is still sweet as can be and such a cuddle bug. Dad says she is like a sleeping pill as he can not hold her without falling asleep. She fits in perfect here with the Z team. Zoe loves to try to give her pacifiers and bottles, she also likes to try to get her and has given her a few scratches. Zayne loves to just steal her pacifiers. It is a constant battle. We have about 30 pacifiers from the NBICU and most of the time I can't find one because Zayne has them hiding. Ziah just had her two month appointment. She weighed in at 9# 2oz (3rd percentile) and 21 Inches (1%) She is just a wee one I guess. She loves to eat and sleep, and like I said is starting to smile at us. I simply can't get enough of it, it's the greatest.

So Cute.

Maybe my photography skills are improving or I just have a good subject.

Zoe and Zayne had their 15 month appointment also. Zoe weighed in at 19# 13 oz and is 28 1/2 inches long. Zayne weighed in at 18# 15oz. and 29 inches long. They continue to keep that pound difference between the two of them, which goes to show us that Zayne is actually doing quite well with his growth and weight gain.

Zoe and Zayne are crazy. They are into everything. They love love love the tuperware draw and the water bottles and coffee mugs. I am sure I put them away 30x a day. We have come to realize that are house will look like a tsunami went through it for quite some time. Zayne is starting to take some steps. He has his new braces for his feet for about one week and decided I can walk on my own. He is so proud of himself when he does. He continues to climb everything.

I am forever grateful that I am able to stay at home with these 3. I am so fortunate all that I get to witness on a daily basis. It truly is amazing and so rewarding. We wouldn't have it any other way.

Zayne had his pulmonolgy appointment last week. The Doctor continues to remain quite impressed with Zayne and how well he is doing. We were able to wean him again. He is now at the lowest setting he can be at before coming off oxygen (during the day). The Doctor is in absolutely no hurry to wean him off. His plan is to leave him on oxygen through the cold/flu/RSV season and we will reevaluate in the spring. We also have an appointment scheduled for a consultation with an ENT for tubes. I am a bit bummed out but he has had 5 ear infections now. I have tried oils, chiropractic care etc. I wish the natural route would work. But between being hereditary and the Dr explained that preemies that are on long term mechanical ventilation are prone to having to have tubes. The pressures from the mechanical ventilation have a tendency to do structural damage. When he explained that, it made more sense and we were more open to the idea of tubes. We will not do the the tubes here in Bozeman. The plan is to consult in Billings. Provided we feel comfortable and they feel comfortable with Zayne and his lungs we will do them there in Billings, otherwise it's Utah. It was important to us that we go where there is a pediatric anesthesiologist, a pulmonologist, and a ICU.

Zayne was also approved for Synergis this year again. We are so thankful that this went through (although if it didn't his Doctors felt so strongly about it they would of fought for it). Synergis is the vaccine that helps to prevent RSV. He will start that vaccine next week. I also asked if Zayne could go out of the house, as in go to therapy or to music class (our good friends Jesse and Anita wanted to buy the kids music classes for Christmas), but our Doctors have said no, and that we can reevaluate in May. So, we are now in hibernation mode. Time to get creative. We stay busy that's for sure.

I love the month of November and taking a step back daily to look at all that I am thankful/grateful for. I have always said "it's the simple things in life." Those simple things have become even simpler these days. My favorite is at the end of the day when I am picking up for the 50x, I may be tired, a little stressed, and need a glass of wine, it's those little fines at the end of the day that make it all worth. Like pacifier's in coffee mugs, blocks in coffee mugs, balls in coffee mugs, shoes and socks strategically placed somewhere, whatever it may be.. I treasure those little finds and it makes my whole day worth it. I am thankful for my relationship with Andy and the simplicity we have and the understanding we have with each other. I am so thankful for his job and that I am allowed to be a stay at home Mama with these 3 little kiddos. The two of us have both said that we will make whatever sacrifices we need in order to stay home with these 3, time is too precious. I miss my job a lot. But, at this point I can't go back until Zayne is off oxygen and does not have his g tube. I can't put anyone in daycare and risk what they will bring home to Zayne or what I would bring home from the hospital. So for now I will enjoy being home with these 3, finding these little finds, taking the moments to spend with them, maybe crochet some hats to sell, and do some at home work for my Dad. Life will be more than good, and for that my heart is more than grateful.

"He is a wise man who does not grieve for the things in which he has not, but rejoices for those which he has."